Waited for me as I walked down the steps. I felt the masculine gesture to let a lady walk by.
I looked up to meet his eyes, and without my words, I let my eyes say thank you.
I lingered for a few milliseconds to add an unspoken, “I see you, and I witness your gesture, and it is greatly appreciated. Thank you.”
And with the slightest nod of his head and a subtle smile, his eyes let me know that he appreciated my appreciation.
I felt something coming at me as I walked toward my car. They were about twenty feet away…walking toward me…waiting for me to meet them. They had a presence of joy. A bouncy-sort-of-joy and I looked up to meet them.
I smiled at the beauty of her joy. And she smiled as if to say, “Thank you for seeing me.”
And both of us nodded an unspoken, “Good day to you, you beautiful soul,” and “Good day to you, you beautiful soul.”
Were bagging my groceries.
I had to look away.
The intensity coming from his unspoken, I see you – was directed toward me.
His smile was great – as if he was lost in his own heaven and inviting me in.
I looked away and then forced myself to see…into his eyes so I could say…I see you too.
I was left with a feeling of awe, and maybe some jealousy, as to his capacity to be lost in his own beautiful space.
And I was so very grateful to witness that which I so desperately want to believe exists.
Depth. Beauty. Joy. And appreciation. In human connection.
This quote by Joseph Campbell is one I often use with patients. I present the quote, sit silent for a while and allow them to contemplate the words. The quote opens inner doors most of my patients have never entertained and we begin to explore what the words mean. At some point, a proposition is made as to whether they want to use their journey of addiction as this privilege of a lifetime.
I get painfully fascinated with how much goodness is in our daily lives – in the mundane activities – right in front of us every day, but we miss it. And we wonder why our lives feel dull and lifeless. But it doesn’t have to be this way.
At some point, if you know someone struggling with opiate addiction, you may be faced with great controversy regarding the best approach for opioid treatment.
I am not an advocate for most medication; especially MAT (medication-assisted treatment). Even though I’ve been working with MAT for nine years, I am still not a fan.
Actually, I take that back. I will support MAT if it’s used as proper drug “rehabilitation” but it’s generally not. Much like giving people crutches in physical rehabilitation: some treatments are meant to be temporary.
We (as an industry) and with the rise of pharmaceutical replacements for opioid withdrawal; have gotten in over our heads – but I do want to offer hope if you or a loved one find themselves choosing MAT as an opiate recovery solution.
It’s okay to look at the unhappy aspects of your life. Acceptance is meant to give you the truth; not cover up it up. Pretending everything is fine is enough to drive you mad crazy, and it’s not sustainable.